Fortunately or unfortunately, life always gives indications if not answers. The only problem being that they are sometimes too small to recognize, sometimes too trivial to cognize and more often than not too harsh to accept but then they are always there. So when I was on a losing war against my questions, I got indications and respite thereafter. As I write, I remember how varied, how relevant, they were and are.
One of my common cribs is that I never usually get things on time, I mean in my mind I have no doubt that I deserve the best but then there is an unnecessary and painstakingly long wait. It was that very day, when I was in my low of lows that I read somewhere "If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain". I got the point, plain and simple and felt miles better than before.